Risking Failure for Something Good.

I took risk in another way, hoping to cause change. I accepted a request to join my church's Flag Dance Team. This is a team that ministers to the church by using flags. We believe that God will use the team and our flags to cause spiritual change to happen. I joined this team in faith, but with much doubt- if that makes any sense. I joined the team to show to show God that I believed in Him, more than I believed in myself. I questioned whether or not I had the ability to cause spiritual change. But I took a leap of faith, believing that God is able beyond my ability. I questioned if something was wrong with me, wondering if I could be used by God. But I believed that God is more powerful than me and has the ability to use anyone. God has even used a donkey before. I was afraid. I felt like I didn't belong on the team. I wondered if I made the wrong decision to join.

Yesterday I had my first opportunity to minister with the team. One of the ministry activities we did was to wave a flag over a person to intercede on their behalf. Afterward the person being ministered to would share what they had felt was being ministered. When my person came to share what I had been ministering to him- he said "I don't know, I just know a flag was being waved over me, I don't know if anything happened." My heart immediately sank. I began to question my ability again. I thought "Maybe I can't do this. Maybe all I did was wave a flag and nothing happened." But then another thought came to mind. I am called to do this. God will use me. God has been speaking the verse to me

Romans 8:28  And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. 

Whether or not the one being ministered to knew it or not God was doing something. I would trust God beyond what I could see. I chose to believe beyond proven evidence. 

The prophetic word I was releasing was that "God was giving faith to laugh in the face of danger, and the courage to trust God in the unknown" 

I feel like this prophetic word was being brought by the fact that he didn't know what was happening. God was bringing an unknown situation and telling him that it's okay to not know. 

I feel like I was also encouraged by the word because I feel like God was giving those things to me also. I had been given the ability to trust God in the face of unknown and to laugh at the lies of the enemy. 

I took risk by choosing to minister not knowing if anything would come from it. I didn't risk anything big. Nothing bad was going to happen to me. What I did risk was failing. Risk can lead to failure or something good. I choose to not be afraid of failure.