Feeling Alone

A little over a month ago I had a conflict with someone who I thought was a friend. I felt betrayed and mistreated. I feel like this moment redefined my relationship For some reason this conflict had a really big impact on me. Nothing has been the same since then and I have basically wanted to build a wall from all people. I feel like I can't trust anyone.

I basically am annoyed/ irritated by all people and don't want to be around anyone.

I (almost) feel like I can't talk to anyone because it feels like no one is on my side. I talk to my fiance, but I'm tired of being such a downer.

I feel like if I continue at this rate I'll be alone forever- and I don't want that. People scare me, so I push them away.

Prayer: God HELP! Only you know what I need. I don't want to change because I want to feel safe from people. I want to keep them away. I want to be right. I want to be powerful. I want to have the power to not let them affect me. Help me hear your voice. Help comfort my fears. Give me your strength. Help me see that I am strong enough to face the truth.