Right now my finger tips are sore from playing guitar. I hadn't played for a very long time. I stopped playing a while back because of a sore throat or shortness of breath. I only like to play while singing.
When playing guitar I sang praises to God. I felt sincere with the lyrics, but for some reason I just didn't feel like I was connecting to God. I feel like God and I aren't as close as I would like, but I'm not sure what to do about it.
I'm sad that my fiance had a friend who died 1 year ago. I don't know what it's like to lose someone- but I do know what it's like to hold a sobbing man who has faced that loss. I feel so helpless to not be able to fix it. I feel so useless/ irrelevant to not be able to help. I feel selfish for making this about me. I feel weird that this is part of his life that I can't understand. I feel like I don't really know him. I feel angry that this happened to someone I love. Why didn't God answer my prayers? I want my fiance to be happy.
God, I need your help. Help my fiance to be comforted. Do what only you can do. Bring healing.
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