Conviction

Sometimes I get tired of doing the right thing, or feeling like I have to. The right thing just seems too hard or uncomfortable. I feel conviction to do something, but my flesh is afraid and clings to the safety of my comfort zone. Sometimes it just seems unfair. Why should I be given such a big responsibility? I don’t feel qualified, prepared, or even willing to do the task I’ve been given. It seems like too much for me to handle. I know that I don’t have to do it alone. God is here to help me. When called to do something that currently seems outside of my ability, I am reminded of the prophesy spoken over me, someone told me that God will be building me up to new levels and that I will be able to do things that I never thought possible. This is a process that requires me to step out of my comfort with faith in the Spirit. There is a saying I live by: “You are where God wants you. Are you doing what He wants?” God has put me in this very place for a reason. He has given me this life to make a difference and to change lives. The time is now. I have opportunities in my current location to possibly make an impact in the lives of those around me. Because the impossible transpired when I came to Master’s Commission, I knew that it was by God’s will. Since God gave me this opportunity, I want to utilize it to the best of my ability and do what God has called me to do. When the situation seems too big as if nothing I do will matter, I am encouraged by the scripture in 2 Kings 7:3-4 3 ‘“Now there were four leprous men at the entrance of the gate; and they said to one another, “Why are we sitting here until we die? 4 If we say, ‘We will enter the city,’ the famine is in the city, and we shall die there. And if we sit here, we die also. Now therefore, come, let us surrender to the army of the Syrians. If they keep us alive, we shall live; and if they kill us, we shall only die.”’ This verse reminds me that even though trying may seem to be pointless, the worst that could ever happen is nothing, which is what would happen if I didn’t try anyways. Saying it and doing it, however are two entirely different things and I feel more inclined to follow the ways of my flesh and bow to my desires for comfort. It’s a struggle at times I don’t know which side I want to win.