God is Worthy of Praise

God is worthy of praise, regardless of my circumstance.

Lately I found that even though I wanted to pray and worship God, I couldn't do so with a sincere heart. I couldn't praise God with my words and turn away from Him with my actions. Either I want to be closer to God or I want to live in lawlessness. I can't have both. I don't know what to do. I know what I should do. I should turn from sin and seek God with my whole heart- but that's only partially what I want to do. I want to have fun. Yeah, sin can be fun, but living with what I've done isn't fun. I want things to be easy. I don't want to say "no" to bad choices when it's easier to say yes.

I don't feel like I'm willing to go through the hard work to get God's best for my life. Maybe I'm just a failure. Maybe I just can't do greatness. Maybe I'm not an overcomer.

Maybe I should just give up because I am tired of my life.