I'm realizing that for the most part, I don't feel like I'm good enough to deserve to be happy. I don't feel like I'm good enough for anyone to love me, or care about me. My boyfriend Kyle treats me like I'm special. I've never experienced anything like it. Sometimes I'm afraid, because I think eventually he will see the real me, and I'll scare him off. But so far, that hasn't been true. He sees the value in me. He sees the good things that I forget about. I'm too busy seeing the bad, and to him, I'm more than my negative qualities. I'm so unbelievably thankful that God is showing me what true love is. Sometimes I'm afraid that Kyle will show more love to me than I do to him. I want to love more. I pray that God will help me to see myself the way God sees me, as someone worthy of being loved. As someone worthy of receiving blessings.
I pray that I will live selflessly. I want to focus more on what I can give than on what I can get. I pray that God will inspire creative new ways for me to give to others. I pray that I will be in tune to the needs of people around me.
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