I'm trying to deal with the fact that everything has it's limitations. I get what I get, and sometimes I throw a fit. God has given me so much and I want to be thankful for what He has given me instead of complaining that it's not enough. My responsibilities of work, relationships, school, and homework seem to fill up my time. It's difficult to get everything done. Something has got to give. I've been staying up late to work on homework, spend time with friends, or to get counsel from leadership. So, lately it's sleep that has been lacking. I've put off rest and relaxation to get other things done. Now I am have to accept my choice and live with less sleep. I need to keep a good attitude even though I don't have what I want. I want it all. I want to have time to do everything. I wish that I could have it all in unlimited quantities. But there are limits. There are limits to how much time is in a day, how much money is in the bank. There are limits to how far I can go physically with my boyfriend while still protecting my purity.(that's a tough one sometimes.) I can't have it all.
The question is, "How am I going to respond to these limitations?"
Some limitations are my choice. I choose what has more value to me. I value my responsibilities to the church, and that takes time. I value my education, so I go to class, and I have homework. I value being financially provided for, so I go to work. I value relationships, so I must invest in staying connected. I value my growth with God, so I must spend time with Him. I must be obedient to His voice. I must pursue intimacy with God by making right choices.
Other limitations are out of my control.
The choices other people make, can create my circumstance. The law- I wish I could drive faster, but that's illegal. Laws of nature: death, time, weather, physics. I can't be in two places at once. I can't go without any food or sleep. I may not be in control of what I look like, or what I feel. But I am in control of what I think.
I'm done being frustrated. Instead, I want understanding.
I'm tired of being upset and discontent thinking "I wish I could ____, but I can't because of ____."
Instead I want to be accepting of the time and place God has me in. I want to celebrate the growth that He is bringing through my situation.
There are situations that are less than ideal. There are things that may not be all that I want, but that's okay.
It's okay that other people have chosen disconnect.
I am in control of me, in all circumstances.
I don't want to have a problem with the way things are.
I want to see the good in all situations.
My prayer:
God, help me to see what is good about the things that I don't like. Help me to remember that you are doing something good. I want to partner with you and the good that you are doing, instead of being angry about the situation. God I trust that you use all things for good. I believe that something doesn't have to be good in order to be used for good.
