Transformed Me

I am not disabled, I am enabled. I’ve been realizing the call God has put on my life, it’s something that I never thought I could do. God has called me and every other believer to ministry. Ministry involves people more specifically relationships with people. God’s call on my life right now is to use my relationships for His glory. Many times I have thought that I didn’t have any ministry opportunities, but I’m realizing that my life and every person I come into contact with is an opportunity to love.

God has worked miracles in my life to bring me to the place that I am now. He has transformed my heart and my attitude and enabled me to do accomplish tasks that used to terrify me. My entire life prior to beginning Master’s Commission, I was a loner. My state of aloneness was both purposefully constructed and greatly undesired. I both enjoyed and loathed the feeling of loneliness. I had built up barriers and closed myself off in order to protect myself from the hurt of others. I have since, changed my priorities. My first goal is no longer to protect me, but to love others.

Jeremy Johnson, a leader in the church once said. “Opportunity doesn't create obedience. Obedience creates opportunity.” I’ve realized the vast amount of opportunities I continually have to share God’s love with others. Acting in obedience to reach out to someone can be uncomfortable, but it’s worth it to give that person the opportunity to see God. There’s a saying that I love “You are where God wants you, are you doing what He wants?” Right here, right now, I have opportunities to love every person I come into contact with. I will step outside of my comfort zone at every opportunity to make a difference in the life of another individual.

God has been showing me my value in this world- that every little action can have an impact on a person’s future. If I want to see a world changed, it will come through a series of decisions to do the right thing. God has made me to be consumed in peace. Though I still have room for improvement, I have no room for failure. I am not afraid. The idea of being a youth leader terrified me at the start. I didn’t know what I would say or do. Now I have a group of kids that I feel blessed to be able to pour into their lives.

God has been continually growing this peace and faith inside of me, which birthed a new confidence found in Him. I can be honest, I can be myself. I don’t have to worry or be embarrassed at how awkward I may appear because there I cannot be ashamed of doing the right thing. I’m not afraid of saying something stupid. Why should I be? I’d rather make and attempt than fail to try. I cannot be disappointed of discouraged regardless of the perceived outcome. No matter what happens right now, I have faith in the bountiful harvest.