Without Realizing It

Without realizing it, we plan everything out,
How we hope our lives will end up.
Where we gonna live and who we gonna be,
We’ve got the kids all named and the house picked out.
I never consulted God on His plan for me.
Who does He want me to be?

I wanna be in control.
I think I’ve got it all figured out.
My way has got to work because that’s how I’ve planned it to be.
I’m too afraid to give up the power of choice.
I want to live independently with no help from anybody.
I want to live in comfort and do the easy thing.
At times I wish I had no call.
I wish I didn’t have to do the right thing.
Instead of My will,
I choose to die to my flesh
I’m going to live this life the way He intended it to be.

At times I have resented the fact that I feel convicted to a certain level of standards. There have been things I have done, just because no one else will do it. I have learned to step out regardless of what everyone around me is doing. I have the ability to act outside the normal and live an extraordinary life. I will not accept the pressures of culture around me. I have been called to be a leader and set new standards of holiness. I’ve always been striving to match the atmosphere around me so that I don’t stand out. Now I see that God has called me, not to reflect the atmosphere around me, but to shine His light in all circumstances. I no longer have to be a follower. I no longer have to live in fear of not blending in to my surroundings. God did not make a chameleon when he created me.
I only have one shot at this life. I have limited opportunities to bring God’s glory to this earth. It’s a hard decision on my flesh, but I choose not to waste what I’ve been given, by chasing a worldly possessions. If I want to live my life for God, it will mean I won’t have all of the things I’ve dreamed of, but living a life committed to serving God will be better than I could have ever imagined.