I've wanted to go to master’s commission for a long time now. Through a series of events I kept pushing it back and the prospect of going to masters seemed to be getting further and further away as I was getting sucked into the world of full time employment. This last summer, a situation in my life took a turn for the worse and it appeared as though there would be no way of escaping the life I had created for myself. At this point in time, I received information about A Master’s Commission in a neighboring town. After attending the first meeting, I learned that the school year was starting in less than two months and I had less than half of the money needed for tuition. As I prayed about it, I learned that this was where God wanted me. I knew that if I were to go to Master’s it would be impossible by my own strengths and I could only do it with help from God. In order to pursue this I would be required to step out in faith and risk something big for something great. I resigned from my job of 1.5 years just after getting my first raise, giving my “two weeks notice” at the last opportunity before class started and before I had all of my tuition money. Through the help of faithful friends, God provided a way for me to do what He had called me to. Had the situation not worked out I would have ended up jobless and without a plan.
My experience with Master’s has helped me to learn how to live a life contrary to the desires of my flesh. Taking the risk to make this commitment betrayed my fleshly needs for security and control. I gave up the comforts of my former life when I decided to enter into this time of separation from living my life as I would chose, a change from everyday life activities and consistently seeing my family or my amazing best friend Amanda. Even though it is difficult to be apart from the things that comfort my flesh, I have designated this time to devote my life to getting closer to God and to learn new things that will prepare me for the future God has planned for me.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Monday, October 17, 2011
Without Realizing It
Without realizing it, we plan everything out,
How we hope our lives will end up.
Where we gonna live and who we gonna be,
We’ve got the kids all named and the house picked out.
I never consulted God on His plan for me.
Who does He want me to be?
I wanna be in control.
I think I’ve got it all figured out.
My way has got to work because that’s how I’ve planned it to be.
I’m too afraid to give up the power of choice.
I want to live independently with no help from anybody.
I want to live in comfort and do the easy thing.
At times I wish I had no call.
I wish I didn’t have to do the right thing.
Instead of My will,
I choose to die to my flesh
I’m going to live this life the way He intended it to be.
At times I have resented the fact that I feel convicted to a certain level of standards. There have been things I have done, just because no one else will do it. I have learned to step out regardless of what everyone around me is doing. I have the ability to act outside the normal and live an extraordinary life. I will not accept the pressures of culture around me. I have been called to be a leader and set new standards of holiness. I’ve always been striving to match the atmosphere around me so that I don’t stand out. Now I see that God has called me, not to reflect the atmosphere around me, but to shine His light in all circumstances. I no longer have to be a follower. I no longer have to live in fear of not blending in to my surroundings. God did not make a chameleon when he created me.
I only have one shot at this life. I have limited opportunities to bring God’s glory to this earth. It’s a hard decision on my flesh, but I choose not to waste what I’ve been given, by chasing a worldly possessions. If I want to live my life for God, it will mean I won’t have all of the things I’ve dreamed of, but living a life committed to serving God will be better than I could have ever imagined.
How we hope our lives will end up.
Where we gonna live and who we gonna be,
We’ve got the kids all named and the house picked out.
I never consulted God on His plan for me.
Who does He want me to be?
I wanna be in control.
I think I’ve got it all figured out.
My way has got to work because that’s how I’ve planned it to be.
I’m too afraid to give up the power of choice.
I want to live independently with no help from anybody.
I want to live in comfort and do the easy thing.
At times I wish I had no call.
I wish I didn’t have to do the right thing.
Instead of My will,
I choose to die to my flesh
I’m going to live this life the way He intended it to be.
At times I have resented the fact that I feel convicted to a certain level of standards. There have been things I have done, just because no one else will do it. I have learned to step out regardless of what everyone around me is doing. I have the ability to act outside the normal and live an extraordinary life. I will not accept the pressures of culture around me. I have been called to be a leader and set new standards of holiness. I’ve always been striving to match the atmosphere around me so that I don’t stand out. Now I see that God has called me, not to reflect the atmosphere around me, but to shine His light in all circumstances. I no longer have to be a follower. I no longer have to live in fear of not blending in to my surroundings. God did not make a chameleon when he created me.
I only have one shot at this life. I have limited opportunities to bring God’s glory to this earth. It’s a hard decision on my flesh, but I choose not to waste what I’ve been given, by chasing a worldly possessions. If I want to live my life for God, it will mean I won’t have all of the things I’ve dreamed of, but living a life committed to serving God will be better than I could have ever imagined.
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