Time

Where has the Time gone? It's sad to say that it's currently May 5th 2011! It's been almost two years since my High School graduation and I seem to be going no where. I graduated from High School expecting a fabulous life full of success. I looked forward to the adventures and learning I would experience. It's been a year in a half since I left Trinity, set on changing, doing great things with my life. It seems like I'm still in the same place I was two years ago. In reality much has changed. I've had such amazing experiences, and I truly have learned a great deal. It's frustrating to me that currently, I seem to not be doing anything great with my life. I'm 20 years old and I'm living with my parents. I have no car, and I'm working at an entry level job, where I've been for a year and have not gained any respect. My work environment is horrible and my hours are decreasing all the time.

It's so easy to feel like a failure. I wonder if I am where God wants me, or if I'm doing what He wants. It seems as if I'm losing against time. I don't know what I'm doing. It seems as if I am lost, just wandering without direction. I want purpose for my Life.

Most of the time, I wish I was anywhere but here. I don't feel at home. I feel homeless like I don't belong anywhere. I long to belong. I long to be where I am supposed to be. I want to be somewhere that feels right. I want peace for my spirit.

Time keeps on passing by and I am standing still. I feel so stuck, as if everything is moving and I am just frozen.