Troubling Thoughts

When I feel anxious, I don't want to do anything. Life just seems like more than I can face. The idea of future trouble gets me discouraged. It's all I can think about. I feel to sick thinking about the future that I don't want to do anything now. This is something that needs to change. I waste so much time because of fear of the future. I need to do something to not let my future ruin my present. Worrying changes nothing. I am only taking away from what I could be experiencing now. I need contentment. I need to be okay with letting the future happen instead of worrying about it. Either the future will be good or it will be bad. It's not that I shouldn't do anything about it- but I need to have faith that God will do something good. I need to accept.

One thing I feel nervous about is visiting my family today and tomorrow. Last time I saw them it didn't go so well. I don't  know what I should to to make better choices next time. Even if things appear to end badly I must trust that God will make things work for good.

Another thing I feel anxious about is going to a New Years Eve Party tonight. I don't feel like I know how to act around people. I don't know what I will do at this party. I don't know what to say to people. I don't know how to have fun and look like I am having fun. The idea actually sounds boring- being with people and playing games.

Basically the idea of being miserable and not being able to do anything about it really bothers me.

Prayer:
God I pray that you will help me to see my situations as you see them. Help me to use every opportunity to worship you. Help me love people. Help me have a good attitude. Help me not dread any situation, but rejoice with you. Thank you for being by my side. I need you.