my realization

reality sunk in as I walked into my Math class. late. again for the third time this week. I realized how I must look to my classmates. I must seem lazy and inconsiderate. They all probably think that I am careless. And that's what I've been.

I really don't care about anything but my own comfort. I enjoy sleep, so that's what I do. Every time I tell myself that, I remember the verse: "...through love of sleep a man will be poorly clothed."- proverbs 23:21
or "Do not love sleep, or you will become poor; Open your eyes, and you will be satisfied with food."- Proverbs 20:13

wake up call!

Stop being lazy. Do things right. Don't be so selfish and think about how God would want you to act in this situation. Remember to let God's light show through all parts of your life. this includes effort, punctuality, relationships.

Being a christian should mean being perfect like Jesus. Though it is physically impossible to be perfect we should still strive for perfection and get as close as we can. Stop telling yourself that you are doing your best and put some effort into it.

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I had thought that I had changed and that I was living for the Lord. But when I think about it I can see that I am still being selfish and living for myself. I do what makes me feel good. I have higher expectations for myself, but it's for my own pride than to for God's glory.

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I realize that this is my pride comming back. I think that part of my pride never left because I thought that I had it all together. My pride got in the way of looking for the pride in my life.